How deeply do you read into blog archives? To my surprise, a few people seem to read all of the posts I’ve ever created, others may just happen upon an old post and comment. Someone did that today on a post I did awhile back entitled “Merit”. I was deeply moved by the comment and thought it valuable enough to repost here, it may be of encouragement to those going through any sort of angusih or pain.
“About 3 years ago I dropped into a ‘black hole’ – four months of absolute terror. I wanted to end my life, but somehow [Holy Spirit], I reached out to a friend who took me to hospital. I had three visits [hospital] in four months – I actually thought I was in hell. I imagine I was going through some sort of metamorphosis [mental, physical & spiritual]. I had been seeing a therapist [1994] on a regular basis, up until this point in time. I actually thought I would be locked away – but the hospital staff was very supportive [I had no control over my process].
I was released from hospital 16th September 1994, but my fear, pain & shame had only subsided a little. I remember this particular morning waking up [home] & my process would start up again [fear, pain, & shame]. No one could help me, not even my therapist [I was terrified]. I asked Jesus Christ to have mercy on me & forgive me my sins.
Slowly, all my fear has dissipated & I believe Jesus delivered me from my “psychological prison.” I am a practicing Catholic & the Holy Spirit is my friend & strength; every day since then has been a joy & blessing. I deserve to go to hell for the life I have led, but Jesus through His sacrifice on the cross, delivered me from my iniquities. John 3: 8, John 15: 26, are verses I can relate to, organically. He’s a real person who is with me all the time. I have so much joy & peace in my life, today, after a childhood spent in orphanages [England & Australia]. God LOVES me so much. Fear, pain, & shame, are no longer my constant companions. I just wanted to share my experience with you [Luke 8: 16 – 17].”
Isn’t this a beautiful story of suffering and resurrection?! (Thank you Micky!)
What did Jesus say to Faustina? Something like, “Let all aching mankind run to my mercy. Even if a soul is the greatest sinner, let him not fear to come to me, for he has the greatest right to my mercy.” (So how much more the soul who is in anguish and darkness, suffering and pain!)
More exactly, Our Lord told St. Faustina this:
“The greater the sinner, the greater the right he has to My mercy.”
“Let no soul fear to draw near to Me, even though its sins be as scarlet.”
Jesus, I trust in you!
