“Keep your eyes fixed upon Jesus.”
When I returned to the Church in 1972 I received some incredible graces. The most impressive was the experience that Jesus is really, truly present, Body, Blood, Soul, and Divinity in the holy Eucharist. The experience was so intense and vivid, accompanied by such profound understanding of the truths of our faith, that I remained nearly oblivious to all the human mistakes of priests, religious, faithful, even the hierarchy, which were occuring in the Church after the Council.
Presentiments of troubles.
I remember two dreams I had, concerning persecution of the Church and Christians. The first dream had me in a ‘refuge’, apparently in the mountains. It was a sort of hermitage, though the building was more like a work shed. Soldiers came with guns to arrest me; I was beaten, and then taken away. That was all.
In the second dream I was in a lower church for Mass or some sort of devotion. The church was filled. Suddenly men broke in and began shooting. I was hit in the neck, fell to the floor, and could hear my blood pouring out like a faucet of running water. I knew I was dying and began the Act of Contrition. I later recognized that the church in my dream seemed to be the same as the lower church of St. Agnes in St. Paul. (I had only attended St. Agnes once or twice at that time, and always in the upper church, therefore I had no idea what the lower church looked like.) That was all.
“When they persecute you in one town, flee to the next.”
For some reason, upon returning to the practice of my faith, I believed that the Church was living the dark night, literally following Christ on the way to Calvary. I always believed the times of persecution were imminent, though priests and religious often told me they never believed it would happen in our lifetime. (Interestingly enough, my thoughts paralleled the vision of the 3rd secret of Fatima.) Today I believe most of them would say they were wrong. Hatred for the faith is almost palpable in today’s culture.
Fr. Zuhlsdorf has a provocative post that seems to follow along these lines, although he is only asking, “What would you take?” if you had to suddenly leave your house and belongings, and perhaps your livelihood, to flee… In his post, Father isn’t making any statement about persecution, rather he is simply posing a question; “What if…” It is a good question.
Oh. What would I take?
My Rosary, my Bible, as many of my relics that I could carry, my cats with their food - cat food comes in small cans, and I’d pick up my best friend and we’d be off to that shed in the hills.
I must say, I was better off when I focused entirely upon Jesus and left the crises in the Church to Him. I need to follow Father’s advice and “clarify my thinking”.